Our Father...

Dear Daddy...
Aba Father...

Abu...
Baba...

You mean the world to me.
Without You this life is pointless.
I remember a time I was so alone, I wanted to die, but You let me live.
I remember when I begged death to take me - trade in with Joan, but You let me live...

For a long while I wanted to believe that You don't exist.
Wishful thinking got me believing You don't care..
But the problem was with me...
I never came to You for ANYTHING!!!

I imagined that I could do it all by myself.
And I got hurt again and again..

And, after all this nonsense, ashamed and bruised...
You still embraced me when I crawled back to You.
You did not rebuke me...

When I cried You hugged me and wiped my tears..
You listened when I called You..
You opened gates for me and closed doors my enemies were using...
You talked to me often.

Let's just say, Your love for me amazes me.
I love You back...
I am not ritualistic... I hate religious frenzies, especially when they make me numb!!

But, my love for You still burns..
Your precepts amaze and inspire me.
I will follow Your word because in Your presence there is love, joy, peace, stability and growth.
Your presence keeps me alive.

Loving You is life for me.
I love You Father..

This is Serenity...

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One love..

One love...

One love For His pride..
One love for the time we cried..
One love, got to stay alive... I will survive...

One love for the people's peace..
One love for the heart that sings...
One love, for I do believe...
One love is all we need...

I refuse to give up, I refuse to give in..
You are my everything..
I don't want to give up, I don't want to give in..
You are my everything...

It doesn't matter what got away..
All mystic fumble...
I thought my heart would never break.. 

Such a big mistake!!

I refuse to give up, I refuse to give in..
You are my everything..
I don't want to give up, I don't want to give in..
You are my everything...

One love for I do believe...
One love is all we need!!

This is Serenity!!!

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To love You..

To love You...
It's the only thing left..
It's the only form of worship I can muster...
It's the only medicine for my pain...

Father...
To love you is life for me...

It's been tough!!
I have felt unloved so many times..
But in the end I could not stop loving You...

Because loving You heals me.
Loving You heals my spirit.
Loving You pacifies my soul.
Loving You nourishes my body.
Loving You is the only thing that keeps me alive.

Every time I want to die, I remember that You love me..
And that I love You back.
So, loving You is the only thing that is left for me.. Of me..

Pure, love...
Imperfect, love...
Struggling, love...
Confused, love ...
Above all... Love!! 

I love You. I will always love You.
Because loving You is my very heartbeat..

This is Serenity!!

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His Words...

In His service...

Through His words...
I think a lot...
I think hard...
I try to rack my brains... To figure out this life...
"No answer!!" is always the answer..

I guess its because I tried to figure out this life using the the wrong stencil.
I tried to figure out something I could not understand.. Something I did not create. I am only a part of this world. It has its Maker. He understands it better than I do.

So I have decided to stop. I have decided to let it loose for a while.
Just let go and let the Master handle it. After all, He has the master plan. All He needs is just my obedience. 

Plus, its not a mystery because His will is spelt in His Words. Not all at once but bit by bit.

So, in His service, I will study His Word. Bit by bit until His entire will is defined for me... Which is never ending because the more I serve Him the more work He gives me... 

Which is fine because the more I serve Him the more I feel fulfilled.

So, let me look to the Word... All in His service. 

It all starts in His Word..

This is Serenity...

Love in bits and pieces....

***disclaimer: I edited the lyrics because it resonated so deeply on my life....***

And all I remember is his back...
Walking towards the airport leaving us all in his past...
I traveled 1500 miles to see him...
Begged him to want me, but he didn't want to...

But piece by piece You collected me
Up from the ground where he abandoned me..
And piece by piece you filled the holes that he burned in me for six years on...
You never walk away..
You never ask for money...
You take care of me...
You love me..
Piece by piece You restored my faith that a man can be kind and a Father could stay....

And all of his words fall flat...
I made something of myself and now he wanna come back...
But his love, it isn't free.. It has to be earned....
Back then I didn't have anything he needed so I was worthless...

But piece by piece You collected me
Up from the ground where he abandoned me..
And piece by piece you filled the holes that he burned in me for six years on...
You never walk away..
You never ask for money...
You take care of me...
Because You love me..
Piece by piece you restored my faith that a man can be kind and a Father could stay....

Piece by piece...

Well, piece by piece You fall far from the rest...
You will never leave me like he left me...
I will never have to wonder my worth because unlike him You're gonna put me first...
You'll never walk away...
You'll never break my heart...
You'll take care of things...
You'll love me...
Piece by piece You restored my faith that a man can be kind and a Father should be great...

Piece by piece...

this is Serenity!!

Freedom

Born to be free...

* Climb mountains, not for the world to see, but to see the world *

When you are free from your fears,
Free from worry,

It's like standing at the edge of a cliff, and below is a clear pool so blue and pristine.
You want to jump off the cliff into the pool and there is nothing stoping you.

You are thrilled.
You know there is nothing holding you back.
You stretch your hands outwards like an eagle spreading her wings..
And you take the leap of faith.

You know that at the bottom of the cliff is acomplishment.
You know that you will not get hurt.
You are sure that no matter what, you will get out unscathed but totally renewed..

You feel the wind, your eyes are closed..
Then you focus your sight and align your body..
And finally you pierce the water and break through beneath the surface..
The water is cool but it feels invigorating
The adrenaline powers your entire body and you swim through the water like a dolphin.

Then you rise to the surface and swim to the edge..
You look back and feel the entire experience all again.
And you smile.. You have done it and it feels good to accomplish a mission.

And now you cannot help but store that feeling deep in your soul..
Because one day you will need to remember this moment and face the challenges ahead.

As you power through life,
Adrenaline and faith propelling you..
That is when you realise that you have experienced the most elemental form of freedom.

Free from fear.
Free from guilt.
Free from negativity.
Free as God intended it to be..

This is Serenity...

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Volcano: The Story of a Fire Queen

The Story of a Fire Queen

On the outside, her time seems past.
As she lies dormant only her past glory is visible,
Centuries old; yet they still reckon her deadly potential should she awake,..
Should she believe in herself and realize her potential, nothing can stop her!!
Some take advantage and dig into her ~ extracting all preciousness from her belly
"She is asleep..", they say.
They search for greener pastures as they exhaust and destroy her remaining beauty..
But the fire still burns.. The currents still move her..
Slowly she expands and flexes her muscles..
Then she gives subtle signs that are easily ignored..
Then she makes a move and signals the birds of the air, telling them to nest elsewhere...
The currents shift her.. And she dances to their tune; no warning ~ no music
Her moves shake the earth... They colour the sky...
She is awake;
New gown; new jewels
She rewrites her history
Those who thought her asleep rewrite their tragedies

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